I let you in on a secret....

It's about something that I probably should never air out but just bother me. Here we go!

So,how do people make vlog/tiktok and aren't afraid being called ugly?

Welcome to my brain dump, it’s morning and when I am able to sit down, sipping a cup of coffee while contemplating about life and emptying it out a little.

My hypothesis is that I guess their confidence is just through the roof and being called ugly doesn't get to them or maybe they never care about that the first place and has always been told they are pretty or such. That's why they are confident about themselves.

For me, I have been content about being called ugly and would always rate myself below average and even 1. Somehow, I never have a problem with confidence up until a few years ago. I don't know where are these issues come from and even today, I haven't found ways being comfortable with it. But as my mom said, the only way to heal is recognizing our problem and accepting our flaws. My flaws is being ugly and I feel like I am finally at the phase where I am confident with being ugly or just mid.

I mean, these days there are plastic surgery, techniques to make us prettier and have sick jawline. I am a sucker for a good jawline and I want to have that still working on that one too. But there are also beauty products these days that could make us prettier and look more presentable.

Another thing that I think is a flaw is awkwardness. I am not sure if that's really fitting to describe myself but somehow it feels like that. I am also working on that one and being consistent with my looks. I mean, in the past I really didn't care about how I was perceived and beauty products or such. Only lately, I am taking up interest to doll up and look presentable. I think it's a good thing to do to also make us feel a little confident and elevate our features. I mean, looks is just look, that's what I learned. I think most people would want to be seen as more competent than just how their appearance looks like.

Anyhow, let me know your take!