Thank you for sharing this Mary! I needed this reminder. I carry a lot of darkness within me, a lot of pain, and trauma, I have been depressed since I was a kid. But at some point I actively chose the light over the darkness. For the most part anyway. The darkness still manages to pierce through from time to time and I am not proud of it. I will never be proud of it even though there used to be time I thought that it even helped me and that I loved it about myself. I used anger and hate a lot to propel myself further. But as I grow and learn every day. I no longer believe that helps me in any way.