It is night and I look at infinity, in search of answers. Those that have become elusive to me during this time, time that runs and takes everything in its path, as a kind of top-class hurricane, inclement with everything that is around it, is the perfect description of my moment.
My life has become a kind of Netflix series, every season it becomes more exciting for the viewer, but sad for the character. It is to be on the verge of collapse, in a world that has changed and made sharp changes. How do you fight against this adversity? I still can't find the answer to that question. One paints a feasible world, full of dreams and hopes.
But, the reality is very different, you understand that you must make decisions to avoid being stuck. The latter can be turned into destruction, it is the entrance to failure, that which we avoid at all costs, that which we are afraid of, much fear.
The connections change constantly, just like a light bulb, it has its life time, when the light runs out it's time to change it. Although the example is not the best, it has its similarities, when everything starts the emotions are more vibrant, like the light of a light bulb, but over time those vibrant emotions, they lose strength. Some of us try to continue, believing in the possibility that everything will improve, but in most cases it is not the best, it is to prolong the suffering of something that you were once connected to.
That I try to express, with what has been said before, that instead of being with someone and trying to work something that is already broken, is to prolong the suffering and consequently is to feel the same as being alone, nothing that has not worked for a long time, It must be prolonged, there you must make decisions, you must move forward, to avoid the irremediable collapse that you can face.
I do not try to express, that I know, how to act in my life, because I confess that no, my decisions have led me to success, as to immeasurable failure, that is why I ask you not to pay me as much attention nor follow my advice, this is only about to share an experience.
Now, if I am sure of something, it is that my course has changed, there are things to be discarded, it is time to leave the toxic environment and focus on looking for other paths very different from this, not only I mean people, but the space that you surrounds. Because after so much thinking, that will be my next plan, to escape to a very distant place, where I am a complete stranger and consequently allow me to get out of the collapse that surrounds me for a long time.
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