I have t go bed now - past my bedtime - but will carry this on tomorrow if that's cool ... this has been something niggling at me for years, but can't find anyone to talk about it that don't end up getting defensive, or telling me just to fuck off!

There is no offense intended in the slightest - but me and my itches - they don't abate and never seem to go away.
(maybe is scabies, but I don't think so).

I find ( from my perspective right now), the contradictions between 'reality' as it is, and religious faith, conflict greatly.

Just trying to work out why my squares are not fitting into round hole's!