Hi @veehayv welcome to Hive. I'm @palomap3 from Lovesniper OCD team.

I can relate to almost everything you have described here, I know how hard it can be to hold everyone all the time and there comes a time when you break down and there is no one to hold you.... Until that wonderful person comes along who will never leave you alone. take care of each other! Your words are inspiring and motivating, writing here can also be therapy, with me it is. As you already have an excellent mentor in @Antonette I'll just tell you to follow her advice and leave you some information that can help you. All the best!

Tips and information as a Hive newbie here: newbie guide.

Communities you might like that are part of the OCD Communities Incubation Program. Important: read their rules and post in the one that fits your content.

Have a good day!