I’ve made some progress today . I have realized that even sulking in my misery isn’t going to accomplish anything. I at the very least want to remain his friend. I’ve also learned that some things in life you can’t change. You can’t turn back time. You can’t unsay what’s been said. If I’ve taken a back seat to another person , then that’s what it is. I can’t change people’s minds , I can’t assume to know what they are thinking, doing, or feeling. I can just take it one day at a time. I have to enjoy the moments I do get.
Now I’m just working not dwelling and obsessing over if he’s texting me back , if he’s going to call , if he’s going to stop by, if I’m going to see him or bump into him. I have to keep myself busy as to not obsess.
So , I have been busy at work and later I will be busy with the children. I need things to help keep my mind off of it . It hurts , but at least there were no tears today.
