Great story, I was fascinated by the cover with so many books, although I don't write much poetically, I congratulate you for finding in Hive a place to grow and improve in what you like. Besides, adulthood and curiosity allow us to experiment, accepting that we are not experts in any discipline, like cooking or sports. Just let me tell you that if your sociability is like that of the tree, it will bloom soon. I'm sure you'll notice that you don't have as much energy or ease as you did at 17 because growing up makes us selective (with food and with the environment around us). Those healthy relationships that you make when you grow up and mature are more lasting, in adolescence we only spend time surrounded by people, because that's the way we think it has to be. I send you a hug !