There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
Ecclesiastes 3:1

I know how that feels. Feeling "stuck" in a season of life that I "don't want to be in"

But I have come to peace that at times, there is a season for everything, and hope, when I see you later and we get to catch up, in a foreign land (in your case) you gave some Selah moments outside the "chains" (not only just physical, but mental)

However, keeping in contact with a community who can be your support group is important, even though when you choose to journey yourself alone again until you found your true purpose (doesn't have to be staying put at one place)