It was just an ordinary day. I woke up in the sound of my alarm, I cook my dog’s food, I reheat my dish from last night – this will also serve as my lunch at work, then I took a bath, started my motorcycle, and drove to work. Finished my 8-5 work, shut down my computer, turned off the lights, lock the door, started my motorcycle again, then drove home. A routine that's been getting my life rolling this past few weeks.
But as soon as I got home, my dog greeted me full of energy. Feeling exhausted, I sat on our couch and automatically my mind started to reflect my decisions in life. And there I was, looking blankly at the ceiling, wondering if all of my days will be as this usual as this. Thoughts were running on my mind. Will my turn in life ever come? Will I get the break that I want? When will I reach the top of the ladder? Am i chasing my time for too long now? Where am I at life? Am I getting left behind? Or were they are just too fast for me catch up?
These thoughts were always whispering in me. They are haunting me over and over. But when I think about what I am doing with my life, I whisper back, “Nah, you think you’ll get a chance? You are lazy, you move two steps forward, but you step backward a hundred times, you keep chasing the freedom that you want, yet you always do mediocre things. People with big dreams act big, but look at yourself, are your efforts nearly enough?”.
I already know the answer on my questions. Yet, I am justifying my lack of efforts. But when I do get the motivation to do things, I always ended up, exhausted. Drained. Lost. Seems like my energy spike up a bit, then goes lower and lower as time goes by. Do you get also this feeling? When you seem like you are an up on big things, you step a hundred times faster than you usually do, but as you are getting farther, little by little, your run became steps, you slowly walk not to catch up on what that you are looking up to, but you walk just to keep moving. No, you don’t need to answer me as I’ll be getting an excuse again for what I am doing with my life.
But if ever I'm just in my slump phase right now, if ever I just got a reroute, I know, one day, I'll get there. And I sincerely hope that if anyone feels the same as what I am feeling right now, we get the reason to continue dreaming big. We come up with a motivation that will push as harder and farther. We come up stronger and better with a clearer vision of what we want to do.
I hope that if every day seems like a battlefield, we come up with an armor and a sword to clear our path. We will always pave the way to our visions and dreams.
I know you can do this; we can do this. If today is no different from yesterday, we will try again tomorrow. The road may seem bumpy and shaky. So let’s keep our seatbelts on and grip the steering wheels harder.
As long as we are breathing, as long as we are moving, we will keep chasing.
And in case no one ask you, please, let me. It will be my pleasure to know.
How was your day?
