My 1st Baby died 7 days after giving birth. She was diagnosed with Congenital Heart Disease. Based on my understanding, my baby's heart valve that controls the blood flow of the heart to the lungs doesn’t form at all. It was intact. It was clogged (if im not mistaken). The reason why shes having a problem getting her oxygen.So I tried to find the reason of this and all was fall in unknown diabetes. I love sweets all the time. I drink anmum, eat Milo(chocolate powder) 5x or more a day, eat M&Ms, chocnut, coco crunch and a lot more sweets. I thought it will only make baby bigger than the usual. But it also affect their health. It happened last year, she was born September 21 and died September 28, 2016.
Last September 21, I still celebrated her birthday, we have spagetti, buko pandan, cake, bread and designed the house for her.
And last September 28, my younger brother sponsored 7 big balloons so I can send a letter to my baby. I am alone that time and very emotional.
Here's what I wrote for her.
That was the letter I made for her, the saddest letter I made in my life! But thank God, He gave me another chance to be a mother. I am currently 8 months pregnant! Yey! And eventhough the father of my daughter leave me alone. I will make sure that I will do everything just to protect and take good care of the 2nd baby. That's my promise not just with Baby Llianna (1st) but also with God.
Note: This is my first blog. I put so much emotion in here! Because I am a mom who lost her child and now her husband! This is Personnal Blog.:-)
Thanks for reading!
