I saw the community a months ago on Hive but never thought to write something how I feel at midnight or maybe i never tried to writing here something but today the prompt of this week catch my attention and I'm here finally to write something.
Life actually sometimes not do fair with us and we have been facing a lot of things in life alone as nobody knows from which we're suffering, sometimes we can't do anything to feel better and then we find others ways which are totally wrong and not so good for our health.
I was a girl who sleep early around 9pm and also wake up at 6am or 7am , mean i took a perfect nap but that was the old days or old time now I'm the one who doesn't want to sleep. I faced a very critical or though part in life which I can't share in the public but i can say those were so terrible that I've had nightmares or always bad dream's about it, about what happening in life.
It always feels difficult to sleep after a bad dream or nightmare as it's the most worst feeling I've felt ever. I tried to sleep but I can't. If i sleep early then it's for sure that i woke up with a bad dream and then till morning I can't sleep.
Then i find a way to overcome this situation!!!
I know some way's aren't good but at least for the current moment they're fine and we feel better. Now i start to sleep late at night , i avoid to sleep as I've a horror in my mind that if i sleep early i obviously have bad dream and then i can't sleep after that because at midnight mostly you're alone, everyone is sleeping in the house. And you're the one who crawling in midnight.
I find a way to not sleep and keep busy myself in watching something. Now it's my favorite thing to do at midnight watch long seasons on Netflix, sometimes i start to watch something on YouTube. And when I feel now I'm tired and my eye's can't kept open then i keep my phone aside and try to sleep. It's not a healthy way but it's best for the current situation in life.
Sometimes I feel sorry for myself, like what am i doing with my sleeping schedule but then i sigh and thing's will be better in life and maybe one day everything will be fine. That's the only hope I've left in life that this time shall pass too.
That's all for today and it's my entry in this week midnight prompt 20.
