Hello everyone!!!
I hope so you all are fine and happy 馃槂
Mostly, i used to say that life is a very uncertain thing and we know that change is constant but we don't know how we'll change after a certain incident and everything can be happened to us but some incidents are so worst that we can't even know that how badly it effects on our mental health and leave it's print on our mind but we've to face it.
If we talk a about a marriage it's obviously feels like a new life which we start with our partners and in our imagination a life which is full of love and care but in reality sometimes you don't get what was in your imagination and sometimes a worst you get it in your relationship. Yeah it's also like a relationship which we oath to bound it with for a lifetime but sometimes we've to break the relationship for our own betterment.
I never thought that for me the marriage will turn into like nightmares and i feel so fear around my partner or in-laws around me. I know that girls mostly have to sacrifice a lot especially in asiatic countries but at that rate, i mean too much sacrifice i never ever imagined in my life. It was a relationship which start from good imagination but it reach to a point in life that I feel fear and who knows that it'll change me a lot.
He and his family started to harras me both physically and mentally which i start to hide from my parents but as obviously they're parents so they can estimate from my face or my body language. Whenever I met with my parents they asked to me to share thing's with them because my Dad think he could do something for me but he can't see me in that condition like lost somewhere everytime and start to feel fear. Sometimes I woke up at the middle of night with a cried loudly and I ended up like no worries Mom I've a bad dream.
How i took a stand for myself!!!
Finally, last year I took a decision to share something with Dad and i don't know how life will change, i mean i can't imagine how much he'll support me. I ended up crying in his arm's and it was a moment when I said I'm tired, I'm done with this and i can't continue with it. Believe me crying in front of Dad I can't imagine but that relationship broke me and i hospitalized for sometime too but for a little time.
I started to have nightmares and lose my sleep after those nightmares and I started to feel fear from person's just like i feel they'll harm me, i started to become aggressive i don't know from where this aggression came but it's something like i frustrating but from all those situations i know that it can be fixed but it'll take time. Now thing's are good but i still have nightmares sometimes.
That's all for today and it's my entry in this hive learner #hl-exclusive for the topic of #hl-w218e3.
