Hello Kim :-) I know that after going through a difficult time it's difficult to look at things with optimism again, but you don't have to force yourself to do it either. Allowing yourself to be a bit down is also part of the process on the way to feeling good. You've probably had a lot of stress with your sister's situation so now you probably need some time for yourself. I'm glad you were able to take this trip to this beautiful island, it's quite helpful to see a different landscape to try and change your thoughts. I hope that little by little you will be able to get back on track :)

And as for the vloggers, I completely agree. You have to be very charismatic to succeed in such a competitive world. Besides, you have to be willing to be making videos and talking all the time about what you're doing. A thousand times I'd rather just take some pictures, put the phone away and enjoy the moment. Maybe months later, like now, I sit down to write about what I did, with the certainty that at that moment I enjoyed my trip without thinking that I had to share it on social networks with a lot of work as a content creator.

I send you my best wishes, I hope you have a good end of the year and an even better beginning of the new year ❤️!