Exactly, this summarizes my case also.. I have days when I play so well, in fact sometimes last month I reached a peak blitz rating of 1799 but then I still dropped to 1590 or so this month before climbing back up.

There's simply the bad and the good season which sometimes last more than a day, I just see all as part of the process of learning the kind of player you are, and also a path to a stronger you.

I was just reviewing my games now from the Saturday tournament and was like 'i shouldn't have berserk, specifically against justola, I know he's faster,( not necessarily better) with shorter time format and also has an higher bullet rating than me, I already knew this and still berserked anyways, which led to my poor performance. Sometimes it's just in our head, one minute you're playing incredible well, another minute you panic under time pressure or fumble from getting too comfortable with your great performance.

It's really unfortunate when you get accused from someone with no idea how much work you put into trying to make yourself better.