Your on to something with the planet&kid thing. I think about that. It was never really a complete deterrent but like, I don't even want to live this...how could I ever force someone else to? sounds selfish. I come from perspective of I never wanted to be born. Don't get me wrong I don't regret life but also not very fond of a lot of things. I feel like I got dropped off on a strange planet or the wrong century...something like that. I get I need to be here with intent but if I had a choice to be born or not, I'd say...I dunno...not today...not today Sir...probably not tomorrow either....