Well sad to hear you are struggling, you don't need perfection, we live in an imperfect world and are imperfect creatures...what makes us human, perfectly imperfect! Just believe in yourself, practice makes perfect.

don't give up or worry if others will care or what they say. I am a woman working in a man's world and started at a time when our presence was unwelcome and I was never accepted by my peers when I first started until many years down the line nor did anybody in my circle understand why I would do this to myself. My mission became to empower more women to learn a skilled trade and make it so that we are accepted in the environment and push for equal rights and opportunity. It's not what others think that is important, it's what you think and that you blossom into a confidant woman as you gain life experience. Don't be so hard on yourself kiddo, you will achieve great things in life and inspire others.