Omg!! Well at least you woke up before he got you!!! That's one active subconscious, next time tell your mind to give you a real dreamland gun, hehe.

Yes it's intense indeed but if my suppressed things cuddling up to cute things in a flower field, I guess life could be worse!! As far as smoking/not smoking, I stay clean when I'm working (only work part of the year) and then when I know I'm done for a few months, then it's PARTY TIME but I don't drink alcohol so I guess that's my guilty pleasure.