If you get lucky, I want you to understand that helping others doesn't decrease your chance of success, it's quite the opposite.
Save your family before thinking about saving the world. Do what you're scared of doing until it's no longer scary. That's good. If you got married to someone thoughtful and supportive, do it with whom?
You're going to have stimulating conversations every day. Someone who has your back, who makes you feel loved. The society where no one has time anymore.
Treasure them. You already won the lottery.
You are not a better person just because you suffer more.
It's only become more lucky the day you understand that no one is going to fight your battles. No one is going to take risks for you. No one is going to give you the life you want. You want something. You need to stop believing in miracles. You need to go get it yourself.