I may be in the same boat as you in some regards here.

I spent a lot of time in life being hedonistic and anti-conforming. Live life now. This left me with the best and worst times of my life simultaneously.

There has been a shift in my thirties though. I’m more productive than ever. So far, I’ve earned two degrees, bought a house, started a family, working on the next degree, started a new career, etc. I mean I could go on. My free time is now the time I spend with my family. No second of the day is wasted but I have no time to indulge in simple pleasures. The biggest casualty of this has been my awareness of popular culture. I don’t have time for it nor can I say I really care that I’m missing it.

The grind is tiring. Let’s prove it’s worth it.