It hasn't come without an immense amount of work. The power of believing in the process is key. Something that has worked for me in general is to have a short, medium, and long term plan. (I mean this is a very loose sense. I'm not a planning type really.) The more distant in the future, the more fluid the plan can be, but the short term realistic stuff should be mostly rigid (stuff happens though I get it). I've had a lot of problems with self-confidence in the past. The short term plans add up for a cumulative incremental success where you eventually have to give yourself credit. Medium/long term keep directed in your short term goals.

There's some cosmic rule that I feel in my gut that for everyone who "receives" much, much is required. I am more confident than ever, but the cost of progress keeps getting higher. I hope you figure everything out man!