I'm one of the thousands or maybe millions of people who are underemployed in the Philippines. Being a graduate of Bachelor of Science in Geology made me so happy. However, I ended up working in my friend's eatery, Penny's Canteen as a cashier at first while waiting for "the call" that could've changed my life. I was supposed to go to Palawan for work. I was interviewed for four times but they stopped contacting me so I thought they'd never call. Then, I went to work in EEI Corporation as an typist/secretary and assistant to a Materials Engineer. (See my post here.) If I'm not mistaken, I was on my second week on the job when I received the most awaited "call" but I declined and recommended my co-applicant who was a colleague from college because I already got a job. Now, I've been working for 4 months and I don't think I still enjoy my job.
After I went on a vacation on the first week of May, I began taking so many leaves and absences. I've been absent for so many reasons, though. But mostly, I wasn't able to go to work because I'm sick and not feeling well. However, there are times that I couldn't go to work because I don't have the drive to wake up and do the things I have to do in the office. I still hate office works.
I'm often late, too. I thought it was because I just woke up late but I realized it was an indication that I don't like going to work anymore.
Give your boss a heads up. If you're working my job, the work doesn't end. It actually increases as the day goes by. My boss expects me to finish reports and other stuff at a due date and for the past weeks, I've definitely disappointed her. I give off the aura often that I don't like my job anymore. And I'm always absent; thus, I think my boss would likely feel that I don't like working for the company anymore. I don't hate my boss. She's actually awesome. I just have no face to show her if I leave all of a sudden without making her load light enough.
The last thing I need to do is submit a memo of resignation. I've been working on it. I need to find another job first before I cut off my budget.
Why I couldn't just go
It's so good to earn money for yourself (even if it's not enough). And it's so much better feeling when you are able to help provide for your family. I'm actually holding on to my job right now because I have the following circumstances.
I'm sick. I found out that I have a lump in my right breast 3 days before I graduated. I was supposed to be in Cloud 9 because I was graduating but I wasn't. It was like a normal day with a problem to solve. I kept thinking what would my parents feel. They should be happy for me and proud of themselves, instead, my mom cried. A lot. She was scared for me. They just finished spending for my schooling and now, they have to spend for my meds and treatment. So I really need the job for my treatment.
I need to save for my daily and future expenses like the surgery (if the alternate medicine won't work), the board exams, etc. I also need to provide for myself since I shouldn't be asking for money from my parents anymore. #Bills I also need to help provide for my brother and sister's needs.
I'm currently applying in a caving organization, the Gaia Exploration Club. I couldn't miss the opportunity because the application usually comes once in every four years only. And sometimes, in ten years. I need funds to do the things I enjoy and love doing.
I haven't find a job in line with what I finished. At least, the one that would accept a graduate with no geology-related experience and no license, yet.
These are the four things that makes me stay on my job even if I'm not that happy anymore. I finally understand what the adults kept on telling me that when you started to work, the need is greater than the want. Which translates to, earning a regular salary is better than doing something you love that couldn't provide for your daily needs.
Benjen Stark once said, "Nothing someone says before the word 'but' really counts." Even Jon Snow called back this quote in Season 7 of Game of Thrones saying, "Everything before the word 'but' is horse shit."
Thus, I should quit my job once all my "buts" are cleared. I should quit when I could finally say, "I'm quitting my job," with no "buts".
But I'll miss the people from work. I've been close to almost all the departments starting from Quality Control, Engineering, Logistics, Planning, Warehouse, PCG, Accounting and even some sub-contractors.
Me and my boss after dinner at UP Town Center
The engineering department in a Saturday overnight outing (I'm from the Materials Section. They kinda adopted me.)
