After last month's flooding incident, my PC getting dunked and having to move have been noticing that I've been having some serious issues with lethargy. While what happened in the grand scheme of things is "small beans" it has seemingly had far more of an effect on my psyche than I initially realized. Noticed yesterday that even after getting things moved to the new place and getting new furniture seemingly haven't been able to muster the focus or ambition to really work on code or even attempt to rebuild my drowned PC. Part of me thinks that I've been putting off trying to salvage my computer due to fears of it being fucked and needing expensive components that I don't have money to replace outright at the moment, afterall I just got a new $500 motherboard and rebuilt the system.
After finally realizing that I've spent the greater part of a month under the grip of lethargy and getting nothing accomplished it was decided it was time to take matters into my own hand to attempt to shake this lack of.. well everything going on. Over the past week I've been trying to normalize my circadian rhythm which seems to be helping a bit.. As well as starting to listen to music again. On top of this also started looking into chemical means of motivating myself, mainly by starting my day with a decent dose of ephedrine, caffeine laced ibuprofen, niacin and vitamin C to boost my mental fertility. Needless to say this slump has been killing me and without action it will just get worse.
Doing simple things like dishes and laundry has slowly started to shake off this funk that I've been feeling which I'm thankful for. Trying to force myself to be active plus my morning routine of eating vitamins, painkillers and stimulants seems to be helping.. For the first time in basically a month I've started to have inclinations towards opening up programs to code which is nice too. I feel so damn far behind on everything it feels overwhelming but alas without some sort of forward momentum the only thing I'd have to look forward to is getting more depressed, fuck that, can't do it.
Perhaps later today I'll have a whack at doing one last 99% isopropyl alcohol spray down of my PC components and pray that the hardware and storage don't explode when I attempt to power everything on during a mock up bench build before installing (the hopefully working) components back into the case. Currently putting this off till later in the day in hopes that I can get some work done on the Hive-Roller.com v0.8.0 new GUI.. It would be nice to feel somewhat whole again.
