thanks for the advice, but I have found God inside myself.. I do thank Dianetics/L. Ron Hubbard for their part in helping me find a mental understanding of how emotional trauma is stored, and how it can be remove, and what it is like when it is removed.

in reading Science of Survival I am immediately struck with the lack of God, but of course Science! but to me, Faith isn't just wishful thinking, true Faith is life changing as you see it in the world and in your experience.. your life changes.

I don't know where you stand on that, but I know those that wish not to see God, or don't think they will, don't. I find that to be the most telling sign, because my view (as i see it) encompasses all possibilities and allows for all things that we see.