I am a kind of person who have had past dissapointments and challenges the way a normal human might have experienced in their lifetime , i am sure everyone have their own stories to tell, I am sure that you also have your own challenges too that you have experienced before or that you are still experiencing so you can relate to what I am saying.
The dissapointents came from things like failed relationships, failed business , not getting the kind of jobs which you want , having problems in your educational system and many other things which have made you heartbroken before.
Those dissapointments do make some of us to start building some kind of high wall around our emotions and life, it makes us to over-protect our emotions and thoughts and we now find it difficult to embrace people into our life , we now find it difficult to trust people and we find it difficult to trust people based on our past experiences..
We are finding it difficult to believe in loyalty , we believe that others will keep dissapointing us so we are not even giving them benefit of doubts..
We have guided our emotions too high till the extent that we are no more friendly with others, we now doubt anyone around us or any decisions which people take around us , we know longer care about the words coming from the mouth of anyone.
Yeah I know it is good to protect our emotions and well-being but when it is "too much" then it will become a serious problem to us and our loved ones and those that really do care about us.
I know you have might gone through alot of things which triggered the reason why you built a very high wall around yourself but you need To understand that when you close your eyes because you do not want to see evil people, you might not know when the good people will pass at that moment too..
You need to be willing to let go and let your hear to heal from the hurt you might have experienced or still experiencing.
Over-protecting your hearts is not the solution to the problem , it will only make people feel sad around you and even uncomfortable around you because no one likes to be around someone that will keep making them sad all the time.
You have to allow your heart to witness a great healing process , you cannot be healed when you are still very hard on yourself and when you have built a very high wall around yourself and it is making it difficult for you to embrace the help which you deserve , the help could from anywhere but you might not be able to get it since you are not even allowing anyone to help you and come into your life.
You need to move on from the past and avoid building any high wall around yourself , give freedom a chance again , give love a chance again , give trust and care a chance again, give loyalty a chance again.