If you are reading this maybe you happened to stumble across it. But more than likely I met you in some capacity and tried to tell you my story… which is impossible for me to do without sounding like I’m crazy or something. But this is not the case. I’m not even sure how to clarify what my life is subjected to other than to say I’m a targeted individual. That can mean a lot of things but if you are interested to learn more of what that means specifically in my case please examine what I present here as an entry into my world.
I am currently in Puerto Vallarta Mexico. When applying to be a refugee through INM (Instituto Nacional de Migración) I was told I had to give a full explanation of all the circumstances with specific details leading to immigrating here. This document (linked here) is a copy of what I submitted to them but with the addition of the original English I wrote first attached at the end. The Spanish translation preceding it is simply the original English posted into Google Translate. #GoogleIsEvil, but that is a topic for another day.
Up until this point this document was the most comprehensive summary of my experience as a targeted individual I've ever put together. It is only five pages. Here is a quick summery.
- Introduction (Targeted individual experience and elaboration)
- Travel History (Migration as a result of circumstances, there are important contextual details here.)
- Entry into Mexico (Not really relevant)
- United States law regarding U.S Citizens (I was NOT born in Washington D.C. and therefore am not a U.S. Citizen. I am an American. there is an important legal difference. This is relevant to my story but will elaborate on it another time)
- Concluding statements (My ’Status’ and additional personal convictions)
If you want to understand the feeling of what I’ve been subjected to read all the definitions for gang stalking on the Urban Dictionary. It's like being in an emotional and psychologically abusive relationship. That’s been my life for 9 or so years now. It’s felt like a highly personalized totalitarianism imposed on me by every one and organization I would have interaction with. I don’t believe though that everyones actions were ill will and evil in nature towards me all the time. Things could have been even worse than it already was I think.
In any event, did you check out the document? Does it help in understanding where I'm coming from better? Maybe it's all a bit much to try to take in at once. But this is just the foundation laying of a building I invision constructing. The canvas I will begin painting a picture on. From here I can maybe create something more colorful in future posts. But feel no obligation to continue on with me from here. I'm just attempting to communicate my story and experience in a way that is more intelligible and possibly improve the circumstances I find myself in.
Speaking of color, I was reminded of this drawing I made back in 2017 not long before I was fired from Apple… which too was targeted individual related.
This was just a timeline sketch trying to see my life at a glance and maybe discern what might have led to this peculiar and bizarre circumstance I found myself in. The gray section starting in 2013ish is when my cognition of being targeted really revved up.
This post lays the foundation to establish context and I hope it better enables me to share my story if I feel led to continue doing so. I no longer waste energy trying to figure out why I’m targeted. I’ve done much speculation but am unable to make any definitive conclusions other than that I don’t have a mental illness.
O Lord, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.
-Psalm 131:1–2
The beginning verses of Psalm 37 also have long been a source of tremendous encouragement.
Fret not yourself because of evildoers;
be not envious of wrongdoers!
For they will soon fade like the grass
and wither like the green herb.
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
over the man who carries out evil devices!
Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath!
Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.
For the evildoers shall be cut off,
but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.
In just a little while, the wicked will be no more;
though you look carefully at his place, he will not be there.
But the meek shall inherit the land
and delight themselves in abundant peace.
-Psalm 37:1–11
First posted 2022/01/18 on my Bastyon account
https://bastyon.com/kermitjoshua
