Tired from Body, Heart, and Mind...

Before I begin, I want to thank God that I acknowledge who gave life to me. I have been through a lot of hardships in life. But I know that I'm not the only one experiencing this and that others are experiencing even more difficulties than what I am experiencing now.

I have dreams that most of them do not happen or come true because of the circumstances that come in my life. But I know that there is something more important than my dream and I accept it.

Man's life is too short to spend on frivolities. I know I am a vain person but I do good according to my will and knowledge. Even if I make mistakes but it is not intentional because it is only due to a lack of knowledge or weakness of the flesh.

I'm just tired so I'm releasing my feelings here at HIVE. Until now, my dream of having my eye operated on remains in my heart and mind. I've been dreaming about it for years. But every time the opportunity is in my hand, there is an event that I have to think about carefully because suddenly someone will ask for help that I cannot refuse.

Because as a Christian if you have the opportunity to do something good, do it immediately without hesitation and God will take care of everything.

I always look at myself like a mirror. I often observe changes in my physical body and my attitude; it's not like it used to be. My earthly body is getting older and my patience and understanding are getting longer.

All I want is to continue with my life and serve God through good deeds until my earthly body gives up. When I say good deeds, all the good deeds I can do because as human beings we have limitations in everything. Like my plants withered because his role in the world is over. The same will happen to our body as it ages over time.

But I believe that when the right time comes and God takes my life, I would like to be with even just a corner of his paradise. No sorrow and pain. So in this life on earth I try to do good and avoid what the creator forbids us.

It doesn't matter to me if other people or my relatives will remember me. The important thing is that I have done what I had to do on earth. This is to please my God through good works.

My only request to the Lord in case he takes my life is that I will not feel any pain; and hopefully before that happens my children will be in good condition and successful in life.