Things I don't understand

One of Coldplay's favorite song of mine. It helps me look back at all the events in my life. So many question lingers in my mind, why? Why I didn't finish my studies, why until now I kept on going back from where I left off. I always say to my self, it is your fault, you didn't have the courage and you easily give up everytime you feel hardship. In a world were the stronger always win, how can I finish my race. I have so many dreams that I wanted to fulfill but it seems I'm running out of time and strength. I post this photo because it reminds me of my hayday where even if I didn't finish college this company has given me opportunity to excel. Wish I can gain those courage again