You're not using your full potential. You're a lot more skilled and intelligent than you think you are, but you're letting yourself get distracted from using this by your perceived obligations and traditions. Instead of working around them and reinventing them and yourself, you're letting dogma, guilt and routine take a toll on your capabilities, and you end up falling short of who you really are. It's time to choose between who others tell you to be, and who you want to be.
Cards: The Lady of the Lake (Inverted) and Gwyn Ap Nudd, from the Fairy Ring Oracle Deck.
Your results are in~ A Jumper came up today, the 5 of Cups: You can't go on hurting yourself over this. Yes, it was harsh, and yes, you feel afraid and tired; but you can't keep going like this. You're not the only one to blame, and beating yourself up for it is not going to solve anything anyways. Look for solutions; there's no culprit or victim here, just a series of misunderstandings and too much ego at work.
1) Trust yourself and your instincts, pay close attention to your gut feelings, because your intuition will be a keen ally as you handle practical matters. Focus on your own interests, on your wellbeing, safety and tranquility: be your own priority and indulge in luxury. You deserve that and more, so listen to your intuition to know how to get it.
(Card: The High Priestess, Rune: Fehu, Crystal: Rose Quartz)
2) Don't let anything disturb your peace: you have worked hard to reach this position, to set the foundations and build your fort, so let no one dismiss your efforts because your path isn't like theirs. Let it all flow as you stand, safe and sound, on the platform built by your success; invest in your goals and let pleasure overcome you and soothe you.
(Card: Queen of Pentacles, Rune: Laguz, Stone: Peach Moonstone)
3) Keep your faith; you may not be in control of things right now, but you don't need to be. Let everything happen of its own accord. This cycle is ending and with it, so many of your hardships and worries will disappear. Enjoy the ride; stop fighting the events occuring and instead let it all happen. Don't try to make sense of it, and instead wait for things to settle.
(Card: The World, Rune: Blank Slate, Crystal: Fuchsia Agate).
