First, I would like to thank sir 
It's been how many months already since my last post. I tried many times to be back but an undefined feeling is creeping me out. I'm fidgeting while making a post that leads me to close my laptop and just do something else.
It may make a misunderstanding to others why writing will make me nervous, I also don't know why since it's new to me. I got nervous out of nothing and sometimes with just thinking about the future which is uncertain makes me feel uneasy and nervous. I know it's weird but I also know some of you is experiencing this one.
I can't write while sitting in my bed because it makes me so lazy, luckily it's not too hot now that I can stay in the balcony to work. I turned my Spotify on and played acoustic music to set the mood and makes myself calm. I need to be patient with myself so I can start writing again.
It's my first day out of my three days off before my colleague will go for a month vacation that will make my next day off unsure. I woke up earlier than expected that I want to do something productive, so I opened my laptop and tried to work on a ULOG. Maybe this will help me loosen up.
My day just revolves around social media and by reading blogs in Steemit and mostly about ULOG and listening to music. It's just a relaxing day for me in our place.
The past months for me is a rough road, had a hard time dealing with anxiety and from losing people close to me without telling my parents and relatives in the Philippines what I've been through. Step by step, I already opened up to others and start to rationalize why I'm feeling this way.
Thinking about negative thoughts will just bring you down and makes things worst that's why I tried to think mostly of happy thoughts that helps a lot with what I'm feeling inside.
Don't be too negative about the future because no one knows what will happen tomorrow and only God knows about it.
Don't rush things because everything will fall in its place at a perfect time and in God's time.
