From childhood, a picture of what life should be when you grow up begins to form in your head. This is aided by the views of people around you, like your parents, so you naturally use their lives as models when you picture yours.
This is until you begin your growth process, mix up with people from different backgrounds and whatever picture you had in your head begins to blur until it slowly fades leaving nothing but your confused thoughts behind.
This was me...literally.
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My curiosity about life did a number on me while growing up. There was always new, often-times contrasting, information to process and my quest for answers usually left me with more questions than I previously had. I didn't always have someone to adequately answer these questions so I had to figure out most things on my own and decide on what was what using my beliefs and principles as guides.
In all the versions of my best life I've pictured over time, one thing has remained constant, happiness. My ideal life is one where I'm utterly happy, happy enough to deal with whatever life throws at me with a genuine smile on my face and optimism that radiates and reflects in everything I do. Wishing for happiness may seem superficial but in my opinion, it definitely makes life worth living.
My ideal life is one where I know exactly what I want and go for it. One where the tenets of society do not dictate my every move and I do not feel the need to structure my life according to anybody's opinions besides my own.
My ideal life is one where I do not second guess my decisions or worry about whether my actions may be perceived as too much or not enough. One where I'm mentally and emotionally strong enough to live without things constantly weighing me down. One where I have total faith in the powers I possess as an integral part of the universe.
My ideal life is one where I'm not surrounded by pain and suffering. Where people do not live at the mercy of external factors that are way beyond their control. Where bad situations aren't normal and no one has to get used to living under unhabitable conditions.
Considering how seemingly unattainable most things in my ideal life are, I'd have to settle for the next best thing, my best life in my own design.
Being a minute part of the whole that is the world, there's a limitation to what I can do. No matter how much I'd like to change the world, I can't, at least not all by myself. What I can do though is focus my energy on things I can change or things that are within my control.
Things like having more confidence in myself and my beliefs. Being intentional about living my life for me, and doing what is right for me. Building my mental and emotional strength enough to not let little things weigh me down.
Things like harnessing my strengths and resources and using it for positive things in my life and in the lives of those around me. Finding happiness in the littlest of things, that way I don't ever run out of things to be happy about and there will always be a reason to keep living.
I'd like to be a pro amidst all the cons of life. I'd like to bring joy and comfort to my loved ones and those closest to me. I'd love to deeply feel every emotion, have the courage to be able to let go of the negatives and the privilege to dwell as much as I can on the positives.
I'd love to be very free to be myself and experience everything that comes with it. I'd love to be alive in every sense of the word. I'd love to be me.
Now the question is "am I living my best life?"
The answer unfortunately is no but thanks to the boost in my optimism lately, I can confidently say that I'm well on my way to living my best life and at the pace I'm going I'll definitely be there in no time.
