![17734464338215138942905311891621.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/tikatarot/23wWwKYPinbCBQ4d8vK2aPDH8GKsTRDdNkS79Xu5k1FN67ptTasr6mR4cEVhVwz44hm32.jpg) ![topfeather.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/tikatarot/jVIY8Tx5-top-feather.png) I step into that small opening, with almost nothing but the discipline to remain beside it, because I know how badly I want guarantees in every craving that has kept my hands hovering, I step into that small opening, not with a clean map but with one live thread I can follow, and how little control that thread promises once I choose to trust it with my attention, I step into that small opening, I wait for the whole shape to arrive before I begin as I bargaining with fear, even something vital inside me grows tired of being postponed, I step into that small opening, can I let one small beginning be enough for today, I step into that small opening, once I stop demanding the ending, work begins to breathe in ways my anxious planning never could have forced… I move with patient listening, even though a part of my heart still yearns for the creation, it means never allowing the others to alter my own perception, I move with patient listening, the most charged moments often come when the piece leans away from my intention as something deeper is asking for room to grow I move with patient listening, but the old habit in me tightens whenever surprise appears before it reveals itself as a perfect invitation, I move with patient listening, am I resisting because this turn is wrong or because I did not choose it first, I move with patient listening, and when I stay through that little wound the work sometimes opens a door I never would have built on purpose… I loosen my grip, not because I care less but because I care enough to know that strangling a thing is not the same as shaping it, I loosen my grip, I can feel how much of my tension comes from wanting my effort to prove my worth immediately, each attempt to behave as evidence to trust myself now, I loosen my grip, making asks for a different courage, the kind that can remain awake without possession, the kind that can meet the unexpected without treating it as failure,I loosen my grip, can I remain present without forcing the moment to validate me, I loosen my grip, the room inside the work becomes larger the second I stop guarding every corner like a frightened creator… I follow the surprising turns, still I know exactly where to press if it wants to stir old impatience and old suspicion, I follow accidents, some of the turns that once embarrassed me later became the pulse of the missing piece, what I resisted hardest was the part trying to take me somewhere needed, I follow accidents, but surrendering to them is never easy for me, it bruises the neatness I had hoped would keep me safe, as it compels me to risk wonder without any guarantees, I follow accidents, can I make room for what didn’t arrive according to my original plan, I follow the unexpected turn of the hand, sometimes the wrong turn becomes the opening the work I was waiting for, and I remember that the work does not ask for perfection, only for my willingness to continue, Watchwords: one live thread, the work begins breathing, That little wound to my control, a frightened owner, the wrong color in my hand, ![bottomfeather.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/tikatarot/bYIitQga-bottom-feather.png) *** Here is Tikatarot, who dares you to answer the question, *“Who am I?”..* *** *** As and will always be reminding you to dream: *“As you are still the Master of your destiny and the maker of your dreams…”* ![tikatarot sign.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/tikatarot/cUPh7Abd-tikatarot20sign.png)

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