One thing I decided to work on was my anger issues. It is not like I get angry all the time, but I have realised that once I do, it usually becomes very intense. I tend to do certain things without thinking about what might happen afterwards, and most times, I end up regretting my actions. I specifically knew I had to start working on this when a friend and I got into a fight that almost led to him being rusticated from school.
As a matter of fact, it also affected our friendship for a long time, and that period made me reflect on myself and the way I react when I am angry. At that point, I told myself that I really needed to change because I did not like the kind of person I was becoming whenever I lost control. I have come to understand that anger, on its own, is not the real problem; the real issue is how I express it. Currently, I can say I am better at managing it. I am not perfect yet, but there is a clear difference between the way I used to react before and the way I handle situations now.
One major way I have improved is by learning to speak up and let things out instead of keeping everything to myself. Before now, I would keep quiet, act like nothing happened, and then suddenly explode over something small. Now, I try to talk immediately and express how I feel in a calm way.
This improvement showed clearly last semester. On my way back to school, I bought bread from home for 1,500 naira so I could at least have something to eat in case I got to school very late. When I arrived at night, I ate a little from it and kept the remaining part inside my locker. After that, I went out for a while. When I came back, I could not find the bread anymore. I asked my roommates about it, and everyone kept saying they knew nothing about it.
was really angry because I kept thinking about how I brought it all the way from home and how it was meant to help me that night. Normally, something like that would have made me react badly, shout, or even cause a serious argument in the room. However, this time was different. Even though I was angry, I controlled myself and simply said my mind. I told them that whoever took the bread did not do the right thing and that it was not fair.
I will not lie — I was still upset — but I was proud of myself because I handled the situation in a better way. That moment made me realise that i am actually growing and making progress. It showed me that change is possible if I keep working on myself and become more conscious of my reactions.
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