“Damm!t” I cursed. Growing up, my mom taught me to always start my day with a big smile or with positive words. “Start your day with positive affirmation. Say something like ‘today is going to be a very good day. I am a blessed child and good things are going to come my way today.” She’d always tell us (my siblings and I.) The importance of starting your day with a positive vibe cannot be overstated. The power to make your day a fulfilling one lies in your hands.
However, this morning was different. My morning was strange because I’m a very positive person but the first thing that came out of my mouth was a negative word. I woke up this morning and the first word that came out of my mind was “Damm!t.” Heaven knows there are lots of other words I could have said, but “Dammit?” How did my brain choose this word? It was as if the negative energy slipped into my brain overnight. I guess it did. I mean, that is the most plausible answer.
I’ll explain what happened yesterday night that probably made me wake up and say a negative word. To understand why I said “Dammit” you need some context. Yesterday night, after publishing my post, I had a short conversation with 
“How about you watch 1 episode of BLEACH?” It whispered in the most soothing voice I have ever heard. “I’m too weak to even think of watching that anime. I think I would be better not to.” I tried to convince the voice. “You know, just one episode wouldn’t kill you. It is just one episode.” I thought about it and finally succumbed. Really, how wrong could it go if I watched just one episode? After all, how much harm could one little episode do? I opened up my phone, navigated to my movies app, opened Bleach, and hit play. Yes, you guessed right. I did not just watch one episode like the voice in my head promised me. Before I knew it, I went from 6, 10, 15, 28 to 30. I don’t know how I did it. I can’t find the right words to explain how it happened. The hours flew by and I was so engrossed in watching Bleach that I barely noticed the time passing.
That's what happened to me. I told myself I would just watch one episode, but then I couldn't stop. Before I knew it, it was 5 am and I had watched 30 episodes. The headache got worse, so I decided to go to bed not minding what the voice in my head would say. It tricked once, I wouldn’t let it trick me the second time. I went to bed around 5am hoping to sleep in to cover up for the hours I spent on watching BLEACH.
I desperately needed to sleep in, but the universe had other plans for me. I planned to wake up around 12 pm (not anything earlier than that.) As if the universe planned this , my phone rang at exactly 7 am, waking me up from my sweet slumber. The sound was so loud and close that it felt like the phone was ringing right next to my ear. Sluggishly, I opened my eyes and checked my screen to know the caller. Lo and behold, the call was from a person I have been avoiding. The first word that came out of my mouth was "dammit!" I know it wasn’t the best thing to say, but it summed up how I felt at that moment. “Damm!t,” I cursed again. “Why would you choose to call this morning?” I stared at the phone till it stopped ringing. I didn’t get much sleep afterward.
The most intriguing part of everything is that my head is hot, probably because I didn’t get much sleep during the day. I think I should go to bed now, but the voice in my head wants me to watch just 1 episode of Bleach.
