The unrealistic expectations of juicygoddess
Growing up, I used to think that Nollywood was reality, especially the romantic movies. This made me always want to be in a romantic relationship. I wanted to have that romantic ambiance. The desire to have someone to cuddle, kiss, take a walk, go shopping, gossip, and even "fraudulake" with.
But what surprised me most is whenever I looked around me, I couldn't find any relationship as romantic as what I've watched in movies. It saddens me, and I was determined to have such a relationship. Little did I know that screen relationships are scripted, rehearsed, and filmed.
Little did I know. In fact, after watching Nollywood romantic movies, you could feel the desire in me. Because of my love for Nollywood movies, I learned a lot of lyrics I use in sweeping ladies off their feet. Severally, I tried to have a Nollywood movie relationship but it always ends in awfulness.
It's either I'm crushing on someone who thinks that "bad character" is part of his life or I'm being too insensitive. For 15 years I became an explorer, searching to build and have scripted Nollywood movie relationships. I really tried. I searched and searched until I was tied.
The experienced I had made it even worst for me to believe that Nollywood Romantic relationships ever existed until I went for counseling. I knew that the experiences I've had messed up my psychic. No matter how strong I'm, somehow, I felt betrayal. But today, I'm glad I held on to my notion of love.
Yes. For the past 3 months and 8 days, I've never experienced love like I'm experiencing. Today, all I can say is that "I love you" babe, for bringing light to my world and I want to let you know that you're picture perfect. PicturePerfect
This was how I felt recently until I woke up. Now, I'm back to square ZERO. What a world :)
Did I do something wrong? Is there something wrong with me? I'm I overthinking things or seeing things now? Do I need to quit all of these expectations? But I'm only a human right? Humans always want the best for themselves right? So there is nothing wrong wanting such romantic expectations right? Well, I guess I was sleeping while delulu-ing hehe, I guess I'm fully awaken and telling myself to believe in reality ***. See y'all on my next publication,
