This was a smaler size 24cmx18cm and I managed to get into a flow state. Technically I should still work on it, at least on the water, if not still fix up some mistakes on the rocks an the top part of the painting that didn't work out at all, but for now I have to let it sit and breathe for a bit. "Art is never finished, only abandoned" as they say..

There's so much fears still though, like, am I just wasting time, am I soo far behind from where I 'should have been', that it is not worth even attempting, are there already too many 'struggling artists' as is and don't need me being added to that pile..? But then I'm thinking.. you know what.. this is how I want to grow old, this is what I want to continue to be doing, even if the life insists on being lived into old age.. and I'm not going to get a batter chance to shift into that than now, so I better fully claim and commit to this.. and hope it eventually turns out to be worth it.