I have asked people for help, alliance or assistance a lot this year, more than I've ever done with in the last 9 years.
This year alone, I've been trying to build systems, partnerships and all, but in reality I've been met with a lot more rejection, and for I've also had to pay some money for some too, but they've ended up in 100% failures.
Asking for help is something I'm not strange to, and most times when I ask I try to ask only 2 or 3 people, who I know are always very comfortable with helping, extended this beyond these people is something I hardly do.
In the past, I've built partnerships with people, and they've yielded a lot of results and sometimes I take this confidence with me when asking people for business alliances.
However life's gotten really messy that I've had no option but to ask people I may not really know as much for help, and expecting to universe to magically expect them to oblige. It's been a tough year, and getting robbed was definitely the reason why I'm here.
I never expected to be robbed of a lot of money, the desperation of trying to make up for all that loss has driven me into survival mode and here we are again.
Spending over 8 years in self preservation without having a lot of friends or connections to the real world may have affected me a lot, but this is largely because I don't like bothering people and having experienced a lot of rejections my whole life, and these will normally drive a person to their own shell.
This isn't to say I blame people for rejection.
It's what it is...
I actually blame my position for needing help, even though I prepared myself to not need any help. But as they say, we cannot be too careful in life, and certainly we cannot be careful enough.
There are uncertainties in life we cannot predict, and the best of people in life can be victims, but I've discovered that being at the tail end of the spectrum, needing help and asking people for it can be damning.
On the other hand, life's about connections, it only feels crazy when you're connected to the wrong people. The right people brings the right connection, the right connections opens a lot of doors.
Life has a lot of circles of powerful people with powerful information and all that, and sometimes you need to sell your soul to have access to this information.
However, regular people have actually found it very difficult to form alliances and I think this is because life gets tough, and no one wants to give up their comfort zone or spread too thin, but I've honestly seen people, circles, business and establishment and there's honestly nothing as powerful as the right connections.
Connections are being formed at the top, but at the bottom the disparity is quite high. I also consider myself to be at the bottom of the spectrum, and it's difficult and crowdy at the top. It's lonely at the top because a lot of people are not getting to the top.
The people at the bottom are not making themselves tools for each others right to scale, and this is honestly not our fault, it's just life.
Sometimes I also think it's because the people at the bottom do not understand how powerful it can be, and everyone just wants to survive and just be whatever they want to be.
Somehow, I think I'll just go back to not asking for connections, assistance and help anymore, perhaps I'll just keep hoping I'll meet the right people someday, and it doesn't have to feel weird or awkward, but it's what it is, and I'll just keep going.
