Thanks for sharing this point of view and this brutal live picture of the situation, from a very human perspective. I just want to apologize for the many trolls I saw here in the comments. I know it's not easy to ignore them, but just know they are losers in life, they are consumed by having lived a life empty of achievements. all they have left is to try to provoke the others and cause psychological suffering in them. theirs are empty words, you can see how they speak out of context and connect unrelated dots. don't give them attention. they will die without it... big hug and hope you will be safe soon!