Well I guess my story is like any other persons out there. I like to think its special but everyone has a story. This tale of heartbreak is recent, and even now I have a hard time talking about it.
It all started back in grade 11, 2nd or 3rd week of school when I saw the face that would be the cause for both my happiness and sorrow. God, she was beautiful, long blonde hair, a perfect body, and the spirit that seemed like it would never die. We stayed friends from there all the way till our last year in high school or OAC. We had always flirted with each other but it was mainly her due to the fact that she had a boyfriend who lived in Ottawa at the time and I respected that.
During that final year we both really connected and it was like we couldn't be separated. The end of the year and summer approached. Formal or what some may call prom was approaching and I dreamt about taking her and treating her like the princess that she is. However those were only dreams... and I went to the formal with my best friend but not her. It tore me up inside to see her with her boyfriend and not being able to get one dance. I decided from that day that I would put her behind me. But plans can be ruined easily.
A couple of weeks later a friend of mine was having a grad BBQ and I went, low and behold she was there. For a while I forgot that I wanted to get out of it and I acted like I always did around her. My best friend saw this and told me I was falling back in all over again. It was just all to upsetting for me so I went home but I forgot my yearbook there so I went back. She found me and asked if we could go for a walk. We did and talked about all the things we wanted to say to each other and how much love we had for each other. We kissed and from that moment onwards until the end of summer we spent almost every day together and shared more passionate moments together but she still had her boyfriend and acted like it was ok for her to be cheating like that. She rationalizes things like that but it bothered me, I don't like being the "other man"
Fall came and we went to our respected universities and we stayed in touch. One day I visited her and that's when I had the worst night of my entire life. We went out and she acted like I didn't exist. My heart sank as I realized that all she did, all the love, all the emotions, all the feelings were fake and she just used me and tossed me aside like a piece of garbage. Now I spend each waking moment in my life asking why? why the person I loved so much would do that to me and act like it never happened. My only consolation is that she is happy and unknowing about what pain and anguish I go through every day, even now. The only thing I can say is that I know there are other girls out there like her, who cheat on their boyfriends when they are away or not near and rationalize it to be ok. Well it isn't, just keep in mind that the person your doing it with can develop feelings and love. You're just going to break his heart and no man should ever go through what I did, never.
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