Hi @jangle, I've been reading a book, and the book discusses how God knew all the decisions we'd make, and as long as we have accepted the gift of Jesus and have a heart that "desires" to please God, he accepts us even with our imperfections.

For me, it feels like I get closest to God in troubled times, and then when I'm out I can be distracted. But, I know God accepts me through the blood of Jesus.

I hope you feel better soon. God bless.