You can be aware like an actor all the time. I'm talking to myself when I say this. I've been thinking about some of these things for decades and especially the past few weeks in particular. There are many relating topics I'm referencing. You must decide whether or not you want to share your life with others. You must decide what your priorities are. There is light on the other side of the tunnel during storms. Mot all is lost in the mist of pain, trials, temptations, difficulties, sickness, death, famine, drought, the many forks in the road of life. I can talk all day about everything, long story, and I really want to explain everything right now. But to be frank, I feel like I don't have time to say it all right now. I'm trying to summarize and mention just a few of the things on my mind. The biggest thing is in regards to being aware. That relates to many things. Be aware like an actor is. Practice being aware. That helps you make better choices in life. Be aware in many ways and all the time. To use an analogy, it is like being aware during a dream. Find substitutions for habits, lifestyles, choices, decisions. Pray not for lust but for passion and drive. Be aware and be ready. Rest and be patient in how you live. Be mindful. Be aware of what you do. Analyze your desires, passions, goals, dreams. Transparency is crucial. Accountability, honesty, integrity, is everything for sure. It can require people. It totally requires prayer and dedication. It stems so much from trust, from faith, from a longing heart to not let go so to speak at certain times. Pray for the fire. Stop lying. Be aware of the lies. Stop lying to yourself regarding what you think you have to and in regards to what you think or feel you can't. Even if you end up on the wrong path, don't make up excuses. Write it down in your journal. Pray about it. Tell your accountability partner. Write down things you will do and then do them. Start out small and commit to whatever is on your list. If they're too hard, then you could make them smaller for the next week. Make it a weekly thing. After a month of doing it, add to your list, make it harder. But not too much all at once. Tell yourself you can do it. Write it down. Tell people. Pray for wisdom, strength, patience, love, dedication. Continue the monthly cycles each month. Never stop that. Never let go. NLG.