Review of "What am I? A Trans or What?" by T. Kalam
"What am I? A Trans or What?" by T. Kalam is a raw and introspective exploration of gender identity, self-discovery, and the tumultuous journey of a transgender individual navigating societal expectations, personal conflict, and the pursuit of authenticity. Published a year ago, this 72-page book has already begun resonating with readers seeking an unfiltered narrative on trans experiences .
A Journey of Self-Discovery
The book is framed as an odyssey, taking readers through the author’s emotional and psychological struggles as they grapple with their identity. Kalam’s writing captures the confusion, fear, and eventual clarity that accompany the realization of being transgender. The narrative doesn’t shy away from the internal battles—dysphoria, societal rejection, and the weight of coming out—but also highlights moments of euphoria and self-acceptance .
One of the book’s strengths is its transition story but instead offers a fragmented, deeply personal account that mirrors the often non-linear nature of gender identity exploration. This approach makes the book relatable to those questioning their own gender while providing insight for allies seeking to understand trans experiences beyond stereotypes .
Confronting Societal Norms
A recurring theme in "What am I? A Trans or What?" is the tension between societal expectations and personal truth. Kalam critiques rigid gender norms and the pressure to conform, illustrating how these external forces exacerbate internal struggles. The book’s description suggests that it "peels back the layers of societal norms," inviting readers to question the constructs that dictate how gender should be performed and perceived .
This aligns with broader discussions in transgender literature, such as those found in The T in LGBT by Jaime Raines, which similarly dismantles misconceptions about trans identity while offering practical guidance for transitioning individuals . However, Kalam’s work stands out for its poetic, almost visceral prose, immersing readers in the emotional turbulence of self-redefinition.
Strengths and Limitations
At just 72 pages, the book is concise, making it accessible but occasionally leaving readers wanting deeper exploration of certain themes. Unlike comprehensive guides like The T in LGBT*, which covers medical, social, and legal aspects of transition, Kalam’s work is more of a memoir—focused on emotional truth rather than informational detail .
The lack of reader ratings (as noted in the book’s description) suggests it may still be gaining traction, but its unflinching honesty positions it as a valuable addition to trans narratives, particularly for those early in their questioning phase .
Final Thoughts
"What am I? A Trans or What?" is a poignant, if brief, contribution to transgender literature. It doesn’t aim to educate in the way of Raines’ work or the Trans Rights Readathon's recommended books but instead offers a deeply personal lens into the trans experience . Its greatest strength lies in its authenticity—Kalam’s voice is vulnerable yet defiant, making this book a compelling read for anyone navigating gender identity or seeking to understand it.
For readers looking for more expansive trans narratives, pairing this with The T in LGBT or fiction like One of the Boys (a trans-inclusive sports romance) could provide both emotional resonance and practical insights . Ultimately, Kalam’s book is a testament to the power of storytelling in fostering empathy and visibility for transgender lives.
