Hello good morning community, today I left a lot of comfort and my usual style, to start try to speak a little English, sorry for the details I still do not master the language, but I will begin to practice more to achieve it, for now excuse me for the details. In this week 103 I touch the survival theme, something that has always torn me is the lack of love, I am to give everything when I fall in love and the fact of not being reciprocated leaves me depressed and without much desire.

Creed fue un tema que escuche mucho en una de estas malas épocas, es una canción que habla de sentirse un marginado y sentirte menos que nada, de lo mal que se siente no ser suficiente para una persona. “hay gente especial y luego estamos el resto de nosotros”, cuando tuve mi primer corazón roto me sentía menos que nada indigno de amor y de cariño, fue mi primera época sin querer comer, pararme, ir a entrenar, ir a clases(solo salía a mi universidad y de vuelta a mi casa), no tomaba el teléfono ni siquiera seguí viendo mis series básicamente no quería hacer nada… recuerdo que mi papa me saco a jugar bolos, a comer pizza y me apoyo mucho en este trayecto nadie de mi familia quería verme así y por esto y para ayudar a olvidar, me sacaron de la ciudad durante un mes para que no me ahogara en mis pensamientos, en ese mes fue que logre recomponerme conseguí trabajo fuera de la ciudad, hice amigos, me olvide de la chica que me había dejado el corazón hecho trizas y fui ganando confianza en mí mismo al punto que comencé a quererme, esta fue mi primera experiencia con el concepto de amor propio aquí entendí que antes de poder amar a alguien más tenía que amarme a mí. En ese entonces era un chico muy inseguro de sí mismo, sin confianza, que se desvivía haciendo toda clase de cosas por aprobación, luego entendí que no siempre es bueno darlo todo cuando las demás personas no están invirtiendo nada o no te respetan, pero yo no me hacía respetar sencillamente era alguien que entregaba todo ese esfuerzo así lo trataran de la peor forma, y eso me fue dejando roto por dentro.

It was at that time that I really identified with the song and became fond of it, I had heard it a lot before but until I had to feel it I had not become fond of it. There were also other songs that I listened to a lot to lift my spirits and help me out of my depressing thoughts, but this one I listened to every day was a hymn despite the depressing message that has the lyrics and for me had taken another meaning, it reminds me of who I was and who I will not be again. From that time on I started to work more on myself and to become the person I want to be, to feel better about myself, to feel that I am worth it, that I am someone, that I deserve people who treat me well in life and give me back, I moved away from people who were only taking what they could from me without leaving anything good.... Today I am still the guy who gives everything without expecting anything and who always puts himself at the service of people but I don't do it anymore if I see that this is hurting me or that I continuously give and give and give and give without any intentions from the other party to even give back or thank me. So I survived my first spite and I became a new person. Well this was the experience I lived and it reminds me every time I hear the topic, maybe it is not a great experience of survival seeing it from a distance, it even seems to me something like "ay tenderness that is nothing, you still have to live", but I assure you that at that moment it hit me like nothing had given me until then to the point that I felt like nobody. I had people by my side who proved that I was worth a lot and that I didn't have to be crying for someone who didn't know what he had until he lost it.