Recently you may have read about several deaths in my family, the last one nearly broke my mind, causing me to lash out at another family member here.
I've reached out to my Mental Health Psychologist, but that will be Tuesday, which coincidentally, is that day I had set for a realtor to come and give me a current estimate of the value of my home.
I'm considering selling.
↑The Kitchen almost 3 yrs ago when I began moving in↑*
I have put SO much money into this place since Dec 11 2020, and it never stops.
I had thoughts that this would be my final dwelling, but I had always said that I wanted to travel more.
My Kitchen Right Now (yes, I'm a slob)
One of the reasons I decided on THIS location was because of the nearness/proximity to my family member, the one I lashed out at, who I am now almost willing to sell and move away than to continue the conflict.
I am THAT non-confrontational.
I moved here because of the proximity so I could be close enough to go help out should she need me.
Seems she assumed that meant I was almost at her beck and call, which I didn't mind for the longest time, but right after my last trip to see my Sister before SHE DIED, broke the camels back.
Conversely, if I can get a better idea of the value, I might refinance and use the three years equity and (I hope) increase in value to improve the property even more.
Maybe I'll build a fence. A TALL fence.
OR, maybe I'll go visit some places I've always wanted to go see in person. Get myself blown up by some terrorist, or catch some new disease.
I don't know, but I'll see the realtor, then I'll talk with my Psych and go from there.
Signed
"The Victim"
by
Jerry E Smith
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