The rules are different everywhere. It sounds like they are really making life miserable where you are. We have had a very sensible type of lockdown in my home state of Minnesota. We can do what we need to do and buy essential things. We can also buy alcohol, go out running or walking, etc. So overall everyone is doing okay. I'm sorry for what you're experiencing... and that it's turning you into a criminal! Ha ha. Sorry, that's probably not at all funny for you!