I’m so sorry to hear about the losses you have experienced, @tryskele. It’s so hard when we lose people who are close, and even harder when it becomes a pattern. It is really great that you have the coping skill of mindfulness and the ability to keep your center even with so much sadness to cope with. I’m sending a wish for strength and resilience, and a wish for you that you can emerge from this with a focus on life and renewal.