It will become even more profound as you get a little older as well, and some of the questions will be anwswered more clearly, especially when you see it from a mother's point of view, if you choose to be one. Your mother did have the extra burden of carrying the entire family, though, and that is commendable and extremely taxing.
Beautiful post @rene.neverfound, and I hope you are found someday!!!
!LADY