"even if it doesn't work out in regard to whatever it is you "wanted", I think you can still feel a greater amount of peace knowing that you tried to pursue your passion than the kind of regrets that might haunt you the rest of your life if you didn't try and just accepted some kind of life that you dislike or worse" wise & very well said, i totally agree with this, i just read ur story sorry for amanda- she isn't n here but she's alive n another place, ur father & mother r doing well & u r having a good time with them- that's great u all take care.