Sorry about the back pain. Having constant pain can tear anybody down, so although you can't see it, it's a big boat you are floating around in. I know, that doesn't make it any easier to know that.

I am surprised if you don't have a huge income that you cannot qualify for some sort of health plan. California gives away more free healthcare than any other state I am aware of. Just because I'm surprised doesn't change anything either, but for real, there should be something there you could qualify for.

You probably can't see it, but I like that you have posted more of your creative ventures and I see a difference where you have communicated more in your posts. You might think that's tiny, but it IS something.

I hope your back gets better soon.