This year, he has shown me so much love, and most times, I feel undeserving. I haven't been able to do half of the things I have watched him do for me, time and time again.
Today, our preacher said, a lot of us had goals for this year, and most of us had already ticked off the list, the rest hasn't.
I am not one of them. I am not in any of the categories. I didn't have any goals. I didn't write anything down. I just started a year blank, not knowing where it will lead.
It will surprise you to know that I have accomplished a lot this year. I have been able to achieve things I wasn't able to do last year. Last year, around this time, I wasn't this human.
This has only been because I had a secret lover. He showed up for me, every time I needed help. He provided all of my needs.
The only thing I did was to consistently run back to him when I couldn't hold up or support myself. I'll tell him, he is all-sufficient, and he is the only one who can help me out.
I am grateful for everything
He did help out, I wouldn't be having this testimony if he didn't. He loves me so much that sometimes I wonder if he doesn't see my shortcomings.
I only have to say sorry, and he forgives. I may hurt him time and time again, he won't use my past against me. When he forgives, he forgives forever. He has no intention of using my past guilt to burn me.
Even with my stubbornness, his love is sufficient. I may whine and complain, he takes no offense, he soothe my pains, and still lift me, no matter what.
I am who I am today because he cares for me. I can smile with everything in me because I am confident in his love. I am bold as a lion because I know who my lover is. I can boast because he is an ever-loving and never-changing God.
