Hi @priyanarc I might just be another person on the internet but I genuinely want to send you comfort and healing. It sounds like living has been an endless entrance to the void yet there seems to be a lot of things going on around you - doctor appointments, visits, work - and physical changes from your meds. The panic attack might be your response to all this, like being on fight or flight mode but there's nothing physical to attack. Since we have a clue that it happened at night, maybe we could look into helping you ease into the night with intentional care. If that's when it hits you the most, do you have anyone you could call? Or is there something that helps you ease the stress?

No pressure in replying, just know that I'll be reading your updates and I wish you well!